Uneasiness or emptiness.. which is worse?

[Koyal Dhanrajgir]

Koyal stepped towards owlrey, her feet moving as if autmoatically, as her mind was full of thoughts.

She was still shaken from what had happened the previous night. Like always, when she had finally thought her heart has found some peace, Jacob had came and shattered it for her. This time, she felt he had shattered it permanently. She knew somewhere her heart still loved him, and that was most painful of all. She wondered if she would ever be able to feel happy again?

She kept walking, thinking about the past events. Maybe it would have been a lot easier to deal with had she gone away to Paris like she had planned to join that band. Things would not have gone so worse. Maybe that was what she should do now. To go away. That was what she had written in her letter to her father. If he could arrange that for her. She knew running away was no solution. But she needed some time to get her mind alright.

She usually hated coming to the owlrey. It was always dirty with owl droppings, dead rats and straws. And worse of all it was situated on top of the towe. And heights always made her dizzy. Today, she noticed none of that as she stpepped inside the room wtih big windows and so many owls.

She paused there to think of previous night.. After running away from Jacob, she had badly needed to go to Perrie. She neeeded his shoulder to cry on. But she had stopped herself. She knew if she went to him, she would have to explain. She will have to tell him how she got those marks on her arms. And that was sure going to be enough reason for Perrie to go and fight with Jacob. Shedid not wish either of them to get hurt. And so, she had simply locked herself inside the girls dormitory. Even now she wore a full sleeved shirt to hide those red marks from her arms.

She needed to talk with Perrie, but she did not trust herself. Last morning, she had been in high spirits. Today, it was an effort for her to smile. Perrie would surely notice that. For first time in her life, she was not sure what to tell him. She felt selfish burdening him with her problems always. If anyone deserved to be happy, it was him. She hoped she could have done something to make that.

[Klera Elric]

Klera stumbled up the steps she knew she had to said a important message with a owl the problem was once she got to the top she couldn't remember who she was sending it to, Klera frowned as she brought another bottle of alchole tinged blood to her lips and a crease between her perfect face tryuing to remember, her eyes darted towards to slumped over girl to the side whos miserable pitty rung off in strentches across the room.
"whats your issue?" she called over taking another deep swing.

[Koyal Dhanrajgir]

"whats your issue?"

Koyal was too much occupied with her own thoughts to notice at first someone else had walked in. However, the voice brought her back to reality and she turned to face the girl she knew was a Gryffindor, but did not know much else about. Great she thought. if an stranger can tell there is something wrong with me, it will take Perrie no time to notice that. She sighed, wondering how long could she avoid Perrie? They usually went to classes together. There was still pretty much time before classes had to start, but eventually she would have to return to the Slytherin Common Room, and then he will know and he will ask.. and she hated lying to him, and she hated ignoring him as well.. But she could not think what else to do at the moment.

She shook her head simply at the girl's question. "Nothing serious," she said, forcing a calm expression on her face while she turned to choose an owl for her. She frowned, thinking it would have been better if she had sent the letter through Hogsmeade Post office. There were so many owls there and the place was so much filled with straws and droppings and dead rats and bones and what not... "I hate this place," she muttered while she looked for a school owl.